I went with my husband for coffee, and walking to the place
I saw a homeless man, bent over his possessions digging looking for something. I
could not see his face, but I used my gut instinct and I called him by name. He
stood up and said, “How did you know it was me?” I have not seen him in 3 or 4
months, and introduced him to my husband for the first time and bought us all
coffee. He said, “I wanted to go sit a 10-day like we talked about, I actually
came back to see you, even though I was not planning on returning to the city.”
I replied, you are in luck, since I am scheduled for one in February, and
looked at the site to see if still open for men… it was. I thought while we are
here I might as well give my cell instead of sending him to the library to
register, and he did while we talked. I told him about my sister, and we talked
about his sister who has cancer. I showed him her last post on FB, to let him
know that as hard it was, she was in control of this exit plan, unlike most of
her life living with schizophrenia. Later on, letting read him read a long, 13-page, wisdom piece by Anadi that I got by email that I find clear.
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Tonight, I was making a cup of tea, and went to grab a
chocolate, I could taste mint in the kitchen, even before I grabbed a piece
that ended up to be mint from a huge box of mixed unmarked chocolates. I don’t
what this means, especially since I have not had one that was mint since we
opened the box a few days ago. But don't worry I won't take this as wisdom. What I do know is that... this path... I cannot even
discuss most of it with my husband nor my family and friends. How that, even I am surprised about
how I ended up on these long sits, looking back? Surely, my partner’s own Buddhist
taught and lived wisdom helps reinforce my own knowledge, but this all a felt
sense I have to experience with my own Kamma. The closest we can come is when we
do Salutation to the Buddha, Dhamma and Sangha together at bedtime or help others together, and that is why he never batted an eye
when I introduced him to a homeless friend out of blue. He just “waiied” him.
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An update, the homeless man never took it seriously enough to go to the library with his email with his confirmation in it. I saw him a couple of times before the date and he knew of the date, but did not have enough desire to complete the task. So, I gave him the information to hopefully call and get back in, but it seemed like this not his time. I booked another person on the ride board to take. When I finally went my to my first 10-day, it was nearly 7 years after I first heard of it from a friend, having thrown every doubt at it first. My partner said there is a reason why he is sitting on the street and not working, this was a foolish wish I had for him.
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