As I continue to sit daily for two hours, I
wanted to share some of the benefits I see (and feel). The first thing is that
with most conflicts, I am much more apt to just let go, and instead of making a
point of being right, I will stop even in mid-anger or dissatisfaction and
leave it all alone. Everything has its half-life, and will auto-resolve
naturally in a way to please most participants as long as none hold on to what
they want(usually held tight in mind).
Perhaps things won’t happen in time frame originally thought, but the
outcome for all those involved will have less stress and more freedom.
I also noted that when I most serious about
anything, later, it will relax fast when I see it clearly in one of my sits
either morning or evening. This seriousness I notice in myself is when I am too
invested in the personality… with all its stories. Postponing any idea of
happiness in the present. So, I will introduce this freedom/happiness I am
looking for, without any seriousness or conditions. One good reason to make
this change is the wisdom that we never know when we will leave this life, and
the foolishness of not enjoying every moment.
There are quite a few things that are less
concrete to write about, but the people around me enjoy the freedom that I
think I am allowing me. Many years ago I marveled at people who were like this,
as if they had a privileged life. Certainly, others can’t relate to my brain
injury's life complications, but being serious about things in life will never enlighten them, it will only burden them creating a sort of “Pig-Pen” cloud
around me. Lift the cloud!
